The "Weighting" Game

I was just thinking about when I was a teenager, I used to think eating was a waste of time.  I didn't want to sit and eat.  I loved my mom's cooking but I'd rather be doing something better like yapping on the phone, listening to music, hanging with friends or making up songs on my electric keyboard!

Now, I love to eat.

I love to eat when I'm happy... I love to eat when I'm sad... I love to eat when I'm angry... I love to eat with friends and family... oh no, wait, that's drinking... same difference... (Oh gawd did I say that out loud?)

I love to try new foods... I love to make new foods...

I.Love.To.Eat.

I jus' wuv it.

Unfortunately, I blew my opportunity to have an endless stomach and eat as much of whatever I wanted and not worry about gaining an ounce like my sons!

My eating went from almost non-existent to being introduced to all kinds of yumminess thanks to my boyfriend (who is now my hubs!).  First it was all nice and dandy... got curves in all the right places.

Ba-da-bing-baby!

Okay, okay... so maybe I didn't look like this so much...

First comes love, then comes marriage, next come the babies...

and then the stretch marks and the food cravings and 

tasting baby's food and eating baby's left over food

and Halloween candies and Valentine's candies

and birthday cakes and, and, and...

and the never-ending yo-yo dieting...

I eventually ended up 40 pounds over weight.  I tried EVERYTHING!!  Stupid cabbage soup diet, Slim Fast, Tried the gym, never went to the gym, Dexatrim, Weight Watchers, Nutri-System, Tried the gym again, never went to the gym again, Body for Life, Envy, Herbal-Life, Weight Watchers again, Dr. Atkins...

I committed myself to three years with Jenny Craig.  And yes, it took me three years to lose the weight because I was stubborn and didn't want to have to do the hard WORK that it takes to succeed!  The key is, eating right and working out... That's what I learned, eventually.

So where am I now?  I'm at a point in my life (and age!) that I've noticed I have to work even harder than ever!  I've been on this kick since January.... trying to figure out what to eat, what not to eat, how to lose weight but staying tone.  I heard protein is good for that.  Yup, protein.... So what did I do?

Started eating protein like CRAZY!  I'm gonna get so fit and so awesome and I'm gonna have so much energy and I'm gonna run a freakin' marathon baby!

Okay, maybe not so big...

Oddly enough, I crave red meat it all the time now! It's not even that I'm hungry cause really, I feel full all the time and it's probably because I'm ridiculously bloated and uncomfortable, I'm miserable!  Time to lay off all the protein!  Seriously though, this sucks!  Staying fit and healthy shouldn't be this hard!

For now, I'm going back to my wonderful fruit smoothies again... 380 calories of heaven!

...And heck no I'm not giving up my foods!  I'd rip my eye balls out if I deprived myself again!  Everything in moderation... oh yeah, and exercise!!! Mucho, mucho! :)